Category: Confused N Blurrr...

Jul242008

How mean when someone turn their backs on you.

Yesterday was the day were i feel my working hour freaking hard to pass.

At my working place there’s 1 clerk whom started working since Ms How prepared to leave, she’s a malay clerk who same ages as me. She also the first malay clerk whom can survive work for more then a year because so far not much malay clerk can survive the 3 months probation period. Nad has already learned alot and can handle pretty well all the sales cases. Yesterday morning Aidy told me Nad and Hud both quit i was so stunned. But i just quiet and just upset caused Nad didn’t earlier give me a 1 week notice for me to take over her job and do some preparation, she didn’t even told me by herself instead of sending Aidy to inform me. I didn’t blame her for resigning because is normal if someone found a better job and leave, afterall no one will work for you whole life right.

What hurt me the most is after 15 min i know she’s quit, i get a sms from her saying how she can’t stand of working here and stuff like that. That moment i wonder did i really that sucks? did i really treat her that bad till when she resign she take me as her enemy ? i didn’t reply any of her smses or missed call. Till afternoon she give me a call and explain what she did is none of my other clerk named Liz.

Liz is an experienced clerk but i not that close to her because i felt she like to gossip and might poke my back too. After Ms How incident i’ve tried to avoid all those gossip and office conflict but alas me too will get hurt even if i keep my mouth shut. I juz ask Nad when she called if she wanna scold me again or blame me for anything again? I told her i never ever poke her back before and i didn’t even inform my mom regarding her quiting this job. Why must Nad think i poke her back? I even cried when saying that to her. I really hate when someone frame me for something i didn’t said or done. Alas she told me that she didn’t meant to send me those sms and said didn’t mad at me. I believe cause i heard her crying as well. But after that Liz forward some smses which Nad sent to her and those smses also something like scolding and swearing me and stuff. I really don’t know whats the truth. Why people that love to bad mouth others why they can treated you so nice in front of you and swear you behind your back? Why can’t Nad come in peace and leave in peace? There’s just too many “Snake with 2 head” but life still gotta move on regards many villain out there i’m sure there’s hidden angel too kua.. Wish me luck in surviving the war among people. Oh they malay has a peribahasa that sounds “Talam Bermuka Dua” hmm..

Now me working with a new fresh clerk whom just have 1 month + experience. I desperate for a new clerk and looking for it. Fellow reader, friends and family please help me lookout for a general clerk, prefer chinese girl. Location at PJ Old Klang Road. Thanksss… Later if you saw my zombie tired look don’t be surprised k..

Mar102007

What have i done !!??

Sigh..Long didn’t i mention about “him” Like i said before now he dating with my tutor.
At first i do mind and jealous abit too, but now i realise we can’t be together..
I don’t know what goes wrong or what did i said to him before these few months he totally ignore me and seems mad at me! This morning i saw “him” at my shop toilet so i greet him and ask is he taken breakfast yet ? he just stand beside me refilling water to his bottle. I thought he didn’t hear me so i repeat it louder abit. But to my surprised he just walk away..
I told my tutor about it cause she know i once had crushed on “him” She told me maybe i send “Him” an email or said something that offence “him” But i really can’t remember it,he just ignore me don’t even give me a chance to walk near him.. I’m so blur.. If i do offence him in anyway i don’t mind he tell me or maybe scold me at least i can changes and apologise. But why do he have too obviously ignore me and didn’t reply my sms or email.. I thinking of confronting him face to face.. But i afraid will make matter worse.. I just take him as a friends now, nothing more.. Sigh….I thinking within next week i’ll confront him and ask whats the problem…