Be fair to me please..
Posting this blog now makes my heart feeling hurt and angry.
Once my teacher also my friend accompany me to MV (MidValley) MPH to meet Yvoone my friend, we go by cab and later she take me back as well. That day she accidentally slipped her words and told me that one of her friend (Of cause i know that girl too,shes my friend too) ask her why she dare to hang out with me ? especially public places, my teacher answer her saying hang out with me is ok, no harm does. Although i not close with that girl,but she asked my teacher for my number and said wanna be my friends. How can she said that behind my back.? Fine i know i have skin illness, i know i walk kinda slow, my skin sometimes can makes kinda obvious to others and also know going out with me must make sure i’m alright. But thats not i wanted too! I don’t want to be a burden to you guy’s.Why must said “aren’t you afraid about your images when going out with fiona(me)” My illness won’t spread to you nor will it affect your healths.
Why must treat me like i’m alien or having somekind of disease thats spread to others ? Although i just met that girl few times, but i still treat her as my friend! Having this illness is not what i wanted or can choose not to have, since i step into this world i have no choice but to carry this illness. I try to lived like a normal person. Be happy and cheerful always, tried my best to be independent. All i wanted and long to have is a true sincere friends who will be there for me when i need them and same goes to them.How hard can that be? Don’t they know that words can kill someone sometimes? I’m trying to accept who i am? accept what i born to be, accept what the god gave me and also appreciate whatever i having now.
But please be fair to me..Don’t in front of me said being my friends and my back despise and humiliate me..I just wanna be a simple girl ok. Who can hang out with friends,study or work and something like that.. Either sincerely be my friends or else just buzz off. I don’t need a friends who pretend to be what they seems to look but behind me just backstab or insult me..I had enough!!
so sorry to hear about this… sigh… life is like that.
Your teacher ‘accidentally’ slipped her words huh… Somehow i felt that your teacher is not as good as you think. And she actually dates the guy who you worked with?
Hi mike, thanks for your comments, and i do understand what you means.
But my teacher is coincidentally my brother girlfriend whom i take it as my bestfriends, cousins. They both are real close like sister, i don’t wanna hurt my friend feeling by suspecting her sis, besides she’s my tutor now, have no choice but to bare with it..
i think it’s good to talk things out. better than keeping everything in the heart… i know you have to bear with it… but… talking it out will be good.
I understand what you mean zewt, but i felt is better u talk to that person face to face rather then talking behind her/his back, and friends with you in front!!
yup… i think you get what i mean… talk things out when you wanna clear the air… dont keep it in you… bad for health.